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Monday, January 14th, 2008
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7:24 pm
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I am not one for these things because I think the details of my life are irrelevant to most people. But there have been three changes that are pretty important and its easier to speak through mass communication.
1) I am employed! I start working at Boston Medical Center on Tuesday as a research assistant in their pediatrics department. I will be helping conduct a three year study involving the effect of urban housing on children. This will include everything from administrative work to writing literature reviews to actually interviewing families and collecting specimens for lab work.As many of you know, the job search was really frustrating for me and I am really happy to find a job doing exactly what I hoped too and for a cause I can really stand behind. I am excited and hopeful for the experiences and knowledge I will gain from it. I am passionate about what I want to be doing and I really have a feeling this will work out well.
2) I am thin(ner)!- Since graduating I have lost 45 pounds. So yeah, I guess I look kind of different and it is awesome. I wouldn’t say I have been “dieting” because I am watching what I eat and working out but I don’t plan on stopping when I reach my goal weight. I would call this more of a lifestyle change and its been treating me fabulous. I won’t lie-it is awesome to fit into smaller clothes but I also feel much healthier and energetic.
3) I am inked! That’s right, this probably won’t come as a surprise to many of you, but I finally got myself tattooed as a 23rd birthday present. It is nothing too drastic and is located really high up on the front of my leg and so it can only be seen in a bathing suit. Anyone who knows me well will probably be able to guess that it is a little frog. Those who don’t know me too well probably still know that I am a huge “frog person.” I collect them and I sometimes have them as pets. What you might not have known is that it’s a little thing I inherited from my late mom, whose nickname was Froggy. So when thinking of getting a tattoo that was the most obvious and while I entertained other ideas, in the end it was the only thing that really made sense and felt really right. Also, ever since I was in New Zealand (about six years ago now), I have considered getting a spiral like thing. The spiral is known as a Koru in Maori culture and I think these two descriptions sum up its meaning pretty well.
“The koru, which is often used in Maori art as a symbol of creation, is based on the shape of an unfurling fern frond. Its circular shape conveys the idea of perpetual movement, and its inward coil suggests a return to the point of origin. The koru therefore symbolizes the way in which life both changes and stays the same.” “The koru reaches towards the light, striving for perfection, encouraging new positive beginnings...The koru, represents the unfolding of new life, that everything is reborn and continues. It represents renewal and hope for the future.”
This symbol has always held a lot of meaning to me and at this point in my life (what with change 1 and 2 for example) it seemed like a relevant and hopeful thing. In any event, the tattoo is all black and the silhouette of a tree frog like creature. However the body kind of spirals in. It is complicated to explain but I am really happy about these two symbols combined and pictures will come soon!
So yes, big, positive changes for J-ho! Oh and I turned 23 and went out to some bars with some awesome old and new friends and drank a lot of Guinness and ground scored a copy of The Jungle that now has the dirtiest things possible scrawled in the front cover.
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| Saturday, July 7th, 2007
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3:32 pm
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Almost half a year, and no post. But what better day to finally do it than 7/7/07? I'm sort of done with livejournal and thinking about deleting it, although I do like reading other people's conviently on my friends list, so maybe not.
I am a college graduate. I completed my div III and I will not lie I thoroughly enjoyed working on it (with the exception of a few tears over logistics in surveying people) and am really proud of the final result. It touched on alot of relevant things that I care quite a bit about, and it was pretty successful. I guess now that its done I feel like my baby is all grown up. I kind of miss working on it. Crazy, no? It clarified whats important to me academically, professionally and idealistically and gave me a pretty good idea of what I would love to be doing with my life. I am a student. I like to study, I like to read, I like to write, I like to interview and interact with people, I like to research and learn more. I can not wait to go back to grad school. I know that's ridiculous, and I don't hear to many people with me on this one, but it is true. I almost wish I applied directly out of undergrad. Almost. At the same time, I am way too idealistic. Child development still fascinates me, and I don't want to stop with that. But issues of access, of disparities in treatment, remain my jam, and if in anyway possible, I can continue working on such matters, I will be happy.
Problem? These goals do not necessarily translate into an easy to obtain, high paying, entry level position. And thats ok, it really is. Yes, every day I feel embarassed I do not have a job and am living room and board free at my dads. People do not need to tease me and say things to me to make me realize that I am very privileged to be able to do this. And every day I wonder, when do I settle and take a job that isn't exactly what I want to be doing but will give me something to do and a paycheck. I do think about these things. But I have only been out of school two months and am willing to put in more fight to get what I want. I am applying to research positions furiously, writing a cover letter a day. Job searching is really frustrating. I just want to walk into an office and say, "Hey look. You will not find anyone more committed to this type of work than myself. You will not find anyone more passionate about it. You will not find anyone more willing to work extra hours, to give it a 100 percent effort. And you can ask the professors and bosses I've worked with how qualified I am." Unfortunatly, I suck and am unable so far to obtain many interviews or reference checks. I don't know if this is because I am 07 grad no fulltime experience, if it's because I dont appear good enough (because I know I am) if its because I completely lack "connections", or what but it is frustrating. I understand how self absorbed this sounds and I don't expect to be running the company, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get my foot in the door and really get involved with what I want to be doing, even in tiny ways. The job search is a frustrating thing with a damned if you do and damned if you don't sense. Do you write an objective do you not? Do you follow up call and stand out or do you follow up call and annoy the hiring manager so they throw your resume away? The whole thing is full of nuances, it drives me insane. But, yeah, thats where I am in my postgrad life. People ask me, and it takes too long to spill it all out, but that just about sums it up. Its annoying to have such a clear picture of what I want, but trouble getting there. Its early though and it will happen. Hopefully.
Socially, I am pretty awesome. I do unemployment in style. I'm at the beach or pool with Emily alot. My nights are crazy-I hardly ever even sleep at my house. I am always on Cassi's ton, or the floor somewhere, or visiting a far away friend. Its great to spend so much time with Cassi, Jackie, and crew, and Mandy, Lanna, and crew, etc. It will settle down, and that will be appreciated, but for right now I am enjoying it. When I am not living out of my backpack, I am reading good books, watching good movies and watching bad TV, and I love it. I do miss Hampshire though and especially those so uniquely Hampshire things-nobody throws a dance party like Hampshire, there is nothing on earth like spring jam or keg hunt, and I miss Prescott, specially the quad, and overlooking it on the fire escape, and watching good people go by. I miss my roomies terribly and the same four songs which drove me crazy, and waking up to pancakes and law and order at 1pm.
I am trying to be healthier, which is tough when I am out so much. I am limiting my drinking a bit, excercising a few times a week and trying to eat a bit better. I think its something I can focus positive energy on now and will be helpful to have in routine when I don't have this time.
I am seeing Harry Potter in 3d at the midnight showing, day it comes out. Jealous? Jimmy Buffett in September, jealous?
ok, maybe in another six months you will hear from me again.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Monday, December 25th, 2006
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3:59 am
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I hate myself for being so broken up over this. I was not that close with him, and its not my way to make myself a part of other people's tragedies. I've seen alot of death in my life, and thought by now it wouldn't upset me, but I can't sleep because of this. Maybe because Herb was the first person my age to die who I had really hung out with, really have some good memories with Maybe it has to do with his personality, and if it was someone else I wouldn't be so broken up. Maybe its sympathy for Cassi and Jackie, two of my favorite girls in the world, who did know and love him so well. In any event its not my style to feel upset and bad for myself in such a situation.
But all I can think about is the first time I met him at Matt's place and first thinking who the hell is this kid and then thinking is he spanish and then five minutes later chatting away with him and laughing my ass off, something I can't do with most new people without 6 beers in me, and laughing in a way I cant do with alot of people I do know. It was the first time I met him and Jackie, and it was really rare to know with out a doubt I had made two friends so soon. All the bizarreness of everytime I hung out with them all, and the "pleasing!" and the constant commentary, and never being able to stop smiling and laughing, even if I tried.
New Years especially fucking rocked. Me being ridiculously overtired and hungover and not in the mood to socialize much but him being my partner in crime for the night and making it one of the most hysterical nights of my life. Mainly cause he laughed at the most retarded things, the things previously I thought only Cassi and I would find funny. Abbbsoooluttellyyy not. Andre in the elevator and PLEASE! YOU ARE BREAKING EVERYTHING! Hardly being able to sleep that night because everytime he opened his mouth with that voice I can hear clearly, I would laugh uncontrolably. It probably meant nothing to him, but he was so much fun that night I remember crediting alot of my good time to him.
I didn't know him in a way that I went to him with problems or had many deep conversations but then again I remember how easy it was to talk to him and I am sure many people have lost a great friend in that respect. It sounds so cliche and I fucking hate cliches at these moments but he really just was a kid with alot of life. More so than the average person and I know that saying God takes the best or the good die young should be comforting, but its really not.
Eh, I dont know. This is so the kind of thing I hate and I cant believe Im writing it-maybe its just that I am always lonely on Christmas combined with the emotions of a stressful family situation coming to a sort of calm at the exact same time. I just hate using someone elses suffering as my extisential crisis. For now, I had to put it somewhere and I have few people in my life to talk to right now. Maybe cause its 4am.
All I know is I love those two girls so much and sincerely pray that them, and all his friends and family get through this. I know they will though, that is something I can have faith in.
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| Monday, November 20th, 2006
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1:32 am
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This weekend has been good. really good. I finally have just relaxed and when I think of most of this semester that I have wasted being sad and hibernating in my loft I get pretty pissed at myself and pretty pissed at others. But I finally like it here and like where things are going, maybe because I'm not concerning myself with it.
and I've given it alot of thought and I really do agree with the girl next door's decision to wear her playboy bunny costume for the judging. I mean, really, yeah, she might have been intimitating but she also was an inspiration to the would be bunnies and reminded them why they were really there. The only thing is, I really dont agree with going against Hugh's wishes...I really just think he knows whats best.
oh and I need a trapperkeeper.
current mood:  good
current music: Rise up with fists-jenny lewis
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| Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
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9:53 pm - Emily Levin loves to watch me eat her key lime pie
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This is me finally being Division III! Yeah, bitches. For those of you who dont speak Hampshire, it means I'm very busy and important. Nooo, its our huge thesis/biggest deal in the world. I am doing a study concerning Autism Spectrum Disorder and low income families. It is pretty cool, along with book/journal research I am hopefully surveying a bunch of families about their satisfaction with treatment and support. I will then (hopefully again) do two extensive interviews/case studies. Its pretty overwhelming/stressful though as I need to find this interviewees. But pretty exciting to be Div III. My div II chair says I am incredibly organized and driven. I think every elementary school teacher who would not let me be in the best reading group because even though I was the quickest reader in the class, I was so disorganized I would be late for the meetings and forget my books should eat that. Also every high school teacher ever should do the same.
I went home for October break. It was nice. I got to stay in and sit on my couch and watch Degrassi. I got to be Cassi's date to her brother's housewarming party and her family always cracks me up. I got to have a snhu sleepover. I got to witness someone's first hangover. I got to see Mandy. But most importantly, I got to buy beautiful, beautiful, Frye cowboy boots which make me so happy because I have been looking for cowboy boots for five years and could not find any that fit me. Then I found gorgeous cheap ones. Vita es bonum. I don't think I got the declentions right and therefore that makes no sense, but I just read a book about Latin and I suddenly miss it which is surprising as it made me want to scratch my eyes out when I took it.
It is surprisingly good to be back at Hampshire. I am finally feeling settled here. Tommorow Jenny and I pick up our clients at preschool and then take them home. We are such soccer moms, its pretty great.
My arms hurt from taking out recycling-too many wine bottles and beer cans!
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| Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
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12:34 am
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So I've been really stressed out over school, family, health, job, and friend issues. Really bad, I'm not going to get into the family and friend issues...but heath and school have been horrid. Health wise-I injured my toe really bad moving in. like its really gross looking and it was horrid and bloody and covered in puss so I went to the doctor and they gave me codeine and bandaged it and made it better except now its worse again. it doesnt seem to be healing. theres like a big blood/puss/skin bubble. I also am allergic to my mod. for real. Whenever I am here I am stuffy/coughy/achey. As far as schoolwork goes-I am somewhat lost concerning div III and courses. I dont want to get into it too much. So between all this and the family friend issues I have been like breaking down and crying several times a day. Its pretty bad. And calling my dad and brother and cassi and jenny and complaining. alot. But this is actually a positive story because today I was like damnnnn I need a CA. Then I was like well shit if I paged a CA theyd just connect me to myself. That would do no good. Then I was like well if I was speaking to myself as a CA what would I tell myself? and that worked really well. So I took advantages of the resources the school has to offer and made an appointment with CASA which I think will help with the div III stress. I went swimming cause exercise is always destressing. I made a list of everything thats bothering me and what I can do about it to compart whats wrong. And I normalized by talking to people. SO I CAED MYSELF!!! yay.
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| Sunday, July 30th, 2006
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4:00 pm
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I've been up to quite a bit but havn't updated-mainly because I've been overwhelmed with all I've been doing and writing about it doesn't seem too too helpful. But as I have now received a "nudge" (I can not believe you can do this now?!!) to update-I will.
Internship-The trendy thing seems to be to describe in great detail everything you do with your internship-so I will try. However, alot of what I do is confidential so I can't give you too good of a picture. One of the best parts is I get assigned these individual research projects all the time. The Home has like over 20 sites....alot of them are group homes (including one of the only LGBTQ homes), some are early intervention services, some provide out of home care, some work with children in their homes with their families, some provide foster care services, some after school, etc... If one of these programs has a question or something they want to learn more about but don't necessarily have time to research on it is given to me. I have mastered the art of internet scholarly journal databases, I goto different libraries and sometimes I call up other organizations and see what they are doing. I then write up a few page summary of what I've found or make an annotated bibliography or a packet of the most important articles and present it to people. One of the most interesting topics was autism and PDDs and how they affect the outcomes of foster care and adoption. I also am proud of researching strength based treatment( concentrates more on what is right and less on punishment/reward) applications to preschoolers. So its fun-sort of like writing a paper for school (only with practical applications), sort of like being a detective or even a journalist. Its strange not being involved in direct care, in going to my cubicle and working alone for most of the day-but sort of relaxing. I still feel strange, grown up, not quite me, and I still do not understand the Starbucks lingo and it still sort of creeps me out. I also do a little bit of more secretarial work such as entering things in databases, statistic analyzing, and organizing reports. This has been valuable though because I get to know what actually happens at these places. Sometimes the fact there is a need for 20 sites in Boston alone makes me really sad, but I guess its something I will have to be committed to my whole life if I want to stick in this field.
Fun-I feel like a rockstar on weekends. Last night was the first weekend night I've slept in my bed almost all summer (no I am not a floozy-I've just been traveling alot) Since Philly and then Bonnaroo, I went to Vermont for my cousin Embish's 21 birthday bar crawl, I spent sometime in New Hampshire doing Cassi/SNHU type things, I went to Rhode Island for Steph's 21, and I spent two weekends in New York which resulting in crazy Cathy and Jenna trouble including VIP treatment on some boat with Bad fish playing ran by rick moranis, a sprained ankle, meeting her amazing new friends, mexican, little italy, soho shopping, mimes and karoke at a southern themed bbq bar where I drank free long island iced teas and PBR which I blame for my descent into crime. (just ask) Friday night Jenny and I hung around Boylston street and tonight me, her, and hopefully emily are going to see a certain shiraelichman play in cambridge. I've been living out of my backpack and coming up with creative ways to not pay for drinks (flirting with alot of dudes-screw feminism-I'm broke). I alternate loving being able to do what I want, go where I want when I want, and flirt with who I want and wishing I had some boy to quietly watch TV with...but I am happy with where I am at now.
I do miss camp a whole lot, especially being outside and in the woods all day (even though with the rain, heat, and mosquitos sometimes it is nice to be in an overly air conditioned room) But I miss the girls and I miss swimming in lakes and boating and all sorts of fun summery activities more than I thought I would.
I saw the Devil wears Prada, it was amazing, Meryl Streep is fabulous. I have read a whole bunch of really awesome, slightly easy reading, books. So far Back Roads, The Heart is a Lonely Hunter and The Namesake have been my favorites. I watch a ton of Sex in the city and that 70s show. I am sadder than I should be that The Hills ends next week.
I always get anxiety about the upcoming school year and this is intensified by it being my last year. I still need another 300 level class, I still need to do my div II portfolio (I just don't know where to begin) and I NEED to make alot of money this year because who knows where I am living after college?. Not to mention the Div III. The internship has given me hundreds of awesome ideas that are spinning around in my head but none get fleshed out enough, a good enough project. I'm terrified I won't come up with anything concrete enough and not get started in time- I NEED to graduate in four years.
ayi yai yai.
current mood:  anxious
current music: Jackie Greene
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| Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
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7:14 pm - They call me ruthless fucking toothless
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Things I have become addicted to due largely in part to time spent at the office:
-Iced Soy Lattes with two sugars
-Philadelphia maki sushi
-fashion magazines-the cheaper the better
-electric rodeo
-tom petty
-citrus flavored green tea
-expensive beer
-craigs list
-the hills
But some of these addictions plus time spent at bars has to dull down alot because I am fucking broke. Which is wear Craigs list comes in because I am selling all my worldy possessions on it. I need creative ways to make money besides the oldest profession. I also need 4th of July plans because Shooter Jennings succeeds in making it the lonliest holiday since Valentines day.
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| Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
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3:24 pm - Bonnaroo-its intense (literally)
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Aup, so pretty much Bonnaroo. What a last couple of days.I don't know quite what to say about it-except it was certaintly an experience and an awesome one at that. The music was fucking incredible. I practically could feel Shooter Jenning's sweat. Some of the best concerts I've seen. It was great to bond with Em and Alie and get to know Marissa and Karen better. Is this the natural bridge? I don't know, it was just a weekend of relaxation and debauchary, going hand in hand. The last few days I was smelly and gross and felt so good. I spent alot of time by myself towards the end and learned to sort of go with it. I really like to be annoymous in crowds and chill with good people I don't know. I had alot of fun with complete strangers. Beck is the weirdest person ever, Radiohead sounded nice, Tom Petty was more fun than I could have expected (guess what? Stevie Knicks!) Phil Lesh in the rain was perfect, Matisyahu was sunny and rainy, and Shooter Jennings should still be my boyfriend. The other bands I saw (Sonic Youth, Jackie Greene, Buddy Guye, Doctor John, Bright Eyes, Ben Folds, Umphrey's Mcgee, Elvis Costello, Bela Fleck, Blues Traveler, Cyprus Hill, Oysterhead, Rusted Root, Damien Marley, etc) were great.
Back to reality. Which I have mixed feelings about. It would be alot worse if I didn't love my internship. I just enjoy what I'm doing-its exactly what I want to be and its an organization I really admire and can stand behind. I can see myself using my skills to do good and even though its on the larger scale-thats alright. Its weird commuting to the office in my buis cas-I honestly do not feel like myself. I feel like if I walked by me I wouldnt recognize me.
I am seriously considering a starfish tattoo on my ankle. I've thought about it for years-I really like starfish. Healing and regeneration and going where the waves take them. Things I need to work on. And I've been dreaming about it alot-which is a good sign.
Embish's 21!!
current music: Tom Petty
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| Thursday, June 1st, 2006
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10:04 pm - Summers here, yeah its party time.
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Aup, so pretty much this summer has been amazing, one of the best I've had. Usually by now I am bored, depressed and regretting all those months I spent longing for this, but not this year. Its been one big party/good time. Philly with Jenny and her family was alot of fun-saw a new city and got to meet a crazy dude named ted and a man who really liked birds. Crazy times. The Hampshire reunion of Becca, Emily, Jenny and myself was incredible. It was beautiful to see my fellow party girl Becca and I showed them a night on the town in the Tewks. Meaning we went to one bar and then partied in my treehouse, complete with the musical accompanyment of several bullfrogs. Add in a Sagateer reunion (Betsy makes me laugh like none other) and a day at the beach with some NH people and have got a pretty great time. Not to mention some great films and books and tv shows. Summer has been great and it has not even started. My internship starts Tuesday and the more I read about the place, the more excited I get. Its exactly what I want to be doing and an organization I can stand behind. June 10th is going to be my last weekend in Massachusetts for quite some time. I sound so corney, but I am sunburnt and happy with life. Just need to make a little money, and things will be good.
Me: Isn't it great that I can spend a day at the beach and guranatee my friend's pictures will be on the internet within hours? Not to mention how I found a great job through the web?
Dad: Yeah, the internet is pretty good...Good thing Al Gore invented it.
current mood: content
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| Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
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2:46 pm
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Aup, I am going to be one of those people that asks for book and movie suggestions as it is summer and I do not start work yet.
Ready set go.
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| Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
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1:14 pm
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Hmmm...so it was sunny for a good four hours which was amazing and put me in a good mood, even though it was sort of a tease. Now it should be cloudy and rainy till Tuesday. No sun for me at Hampshire College. I had my last umass class today. With all this spare time, I should be studying more and going on less adventures with Allie and watching less silly movies with Jenny, but so be it. They are amazing.
I am looking forward to a summer of adventure, with lots of travel and concerts. It should be very different, as it will be my first summer seperated from Cassi and my first summer so close to Jenny and David. However here are the places I will visit:
Philly-I think I am going to Philly to see Jenny and goto a party at her new sister's house. I am very excited to meet her new siblings because I always adore her family members and I imagine that staying the same. Also I hope to see Will Smith. Yes, Will Smith.
New York City-The only perk to Cassi being so far away is that we will stay out in the city until 4am and have a Cathy and Jenna good time. I plan on visiting her at least twice-hopefully once with Jackie and Herb because the three of them were essentials last summer and once on my own so Cassi and I can goto many many bAHHHS and drink many many Blue Hawaiians.
Rhode Island- Steph's twenty first!!! I will finally get to see her new house and see her family whom I havn't seen in years. This is sure to be delightful.
Massachusetts-I live there, jerkoff.
New Hampshire-I practically live there. But also I hope to pay and receive many visits from Ross and Josh, and David and Emily, if they are not too busy. Ross, Josh and I will go fishing, watch Red Sox games, and drink beer/whiskey (if you are me, combined)...but I will NOT be one of the guys. Who am I kidding?
Washington DC-Emily, Marissa and I will stop here and possibly spend the night when we pick up Allie and Karen for...
Tennessee!!!-with possible stops in random southern states and bayaus-for Bonnaroo! oh so excited.
Which brings me to: performances I will see!!
Bonnaroo-so very excited for camping and music. Beck, Elvis Costello, Radiohead, Tom Petty, shooter jennings, Bela Fleck, Bright Eyes, Death Cab, Streets, Ben Folds, Phil Lesh, Oysterhead, G Love, Dresden Dolls, Sonic Youth, Matisyahu, Les Claypool, Blues Traveler, and some other fun people. can not wait for this.
Jimmy Buffett-Tweeter Center, probably with Cassi and Jenny. going to be the most amazing thing as usual and the biggest party as usual. This never gets old and always remains something I look forward to all year. Sort of like Christmas.
RENT-POOKA! ME! BOSTON! enough said.
Along with all this fun I look forward to seeing my family, spending time in random spots in boston, and seeing Katie, Nikki and all those people I never see...I really want something solid on this internship. Like I know they are checking my references now, and I can't really imagine them being like just kidding you don't have it, but if they did my summer/div III would fall apart. So yeah, confirmation would be great. I am very very excited for it though and plan on putting alot of effort into it. Shall be great...
ok, I will study now, I swear.
Chow. Who says Chow?
current mood:  excited
current music: Cast Iron Filter
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| Monday, May 15th, 2006
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11:39 pm
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I am ready for summer and ready to leave this place. Although I have finished all of my portfolios I can not go home as I have a final on Friday at Umass. I will then hang around for commencement and go home Sunday, which is earlier than I thought and good. Everybody is packing up and leaving-and it is dull because I have no work to get done. But Emily is here for the night and is tan and Cubanized. Jenny gets back soon too, so maybe the next few days won't be as blah. The semester ended on a weird note and alot of things I wanted to get wrapped up didn't but they did leave exciting possibilities open, which is neato. One of the most exciting parts of this summer is that I will get to dress in BUSINESS CASUAL. Although Emily informs me that I can not wear business casual on the bayou which is unfortunate because I have a strong love for both. Perhaps when we head South to BONNAROO, we can stop at the Bayou. That would be keen. Although I will have to not be wearing business casual.
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| Sunday, May 7th, 2006
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1:16 am - There are precious few at ease with moral ambiguities, and so we act as though they don't exist
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So yet again we come to that point where if I do not update soon, Katie will go insane. Alot has been up with me lately, and for the most part its been great. I have come to appreciate our backyard quite a bit...for homework, margaritas and napping. So usually when I am around the mod, thats where I'm at. That said, I've been ridiculously busy with babysitting and CA interviewing. I also have a ton of final papers due. But this weekend has been pretty neat-I powerhoured in my backyard, and was a trooper about it. I then went on a scavenger hunt around Prescott. Today I came home and saw WICKED!! Oh man, it was sooo good and so politically charged, I love it. I also have been wearing my necklace that turns me green too much lately, so I sort of looked like Elphaba. Which is amazing, because I relate to her so much. The woman who played her was AMAZING in "No Good Deed Goes Unpunished". It was also cool being in Boston on a beautiful day...I am really excited to spend many days and nights there this summer...Because I ALMOST DEFINITELY GOT A REALLY AWESOME INTERNSHIP!! Its with the home for little wanderers in boston, which is this huge child mental health and welfare service in Boston with satelite sites all over boston. They do alot of programs for at risk children, and I will most likely be doing research for them. Evaluating how helpful their work has been to children and also a special project about families growing up with siblings with autism and some other things. I still have to get my references checked and my I'm not a criminal forms filled out...but yeah Im pretty optimistic about this one. It will be so amazing, I am very excited.
So things are wrapping up pretty nicely for the moment in that scenerio, I'm finally accomplishing things.
I wasn't born for the roses and pearls...
current mood:  accomplished
current music: As long as you're mine-wicked
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| Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
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12:59 am
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So mod of joy. After more ridiculous drama than I can possibly describe, the lottery ended up pretty painless. Jenny, Allie, Julia, Becca, Emily, and two other girls-Marie Laure and Sasha, ended up having the second most points and then getting the second most mod we wanted. Which was really the first, but alot of people wanted the one we did actually get, so we were going to go for the other one if we could. But we couldn't. In any event its in prescott, which I really wanted, with my girls, which I really wanted, renovated, and I HAVE A LOFT! Like a Barn! I could fill it with hay if I wanted. But no, my room is two floors, and therefore huge. Very excited about that. So I'm feeling a little more settled. Everything else is up in the air, but at least I have that figured out.
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| Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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I see no real need in updating this but Katie says I should once again and so I will. But really all I ever have to say is a recap of my usually beligerant weekend and bitch about all the work I have. At least I can recognize that. So drunkin recap: Thursday Allie and I played hopscotch and tyedyed and that is always nice. I watched the pitiful Red Sox game and drank with JEANETTE!!! and Merrill people. That was fun-great to see my heterosexual life partner and her crew-It was so much like last year. Friday I watched another pitiful Red Sox game with Josh and Ross and sometimes David. Those boys crack me up and I was wearing the cutest bouncy skirt and was therefore not one of the dudes. I drank gin and tonics and watched bad tv with Jenny and Brian. Saturday was insane. Jenny and I hit up the beer gardens at like 4:30. I was on the gummy bears and beer diet, and realized this was bad so I ate at the Saga-que. Drank more beer, came back here, drunk double dutched, drunk danced, drunk ate way too many chips and salsa and tots, drank quite a bit of gin. Then I went to Spring Jam which was quite a bit more fun than I expected. Today however my stomach hates me-probably because of too much beer and chips and salsa consumed this weekend. I think we sort of have our living situation for next year figured out-which is sort of nice. Erica is listening to really creepy chanting music and has lots of those Catholic-y candles lit around her room and I think she may be sacrificing someone. I have alot of work/to work this week-but you already knew that. Now its time for Joe vs the Volcano with the housemates.
current mood:  full
current music: Erica's death music/Joe vs the volcano/whitney housten??
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| Sunday, April 16th, 2006
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4:51 pm
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So I just picked out 5 formal gowns to donate to programs that enable underpriviliged girls to goto prom. This makes sense, cause prom is fucking expensive. But the parting with dresses thing was alot more of an ordeal than it should have been. First of all, it is a little ridiculous that I own ten and even more that I am so attached to them all.
The point of this all? I love pretty dresses and am therefore not "one of the dudes" contrary to popular belief. So dudes listen up, I may drink more beer than you and be able to chat about red sox and pats and have a dirtier mouth than you...but I am not a stereotype! No, I love/hate being one of the guys.
This weekend has been pretty great. Friday was drag ball and I got to hang out with awesome people that I don't get to hang out with enough and also pass off a certain tall science loving male friend of mine as my girlfriend. I came home yesterday for Easter and went over Cristal's last night. This was fun, I love that girl. Today I went to church with mi padre. Church on Easter makes me a little sad and I can't point out why. The brothers are coming over tonight for dinner and hopefully I will see my Pookaface after.
But probably not because I have this stupid Stranger Danger paper! I hate Stranger Danger. But I am working ridiculous hours next week, so I am trying to get my homework done today. And by try I mean I am on livejournal. I'm getting pretty stressed-I feel an internship should cut me a break and hire me because I really want one not for the resume but to actually get out there and do something and I am working really hard to find one so come on guys. This is really what I should put on applications. Too much homework, too much work, too much, too much, too much! But its good I did not Kegg hunt, because I would not be able to do anything.
current mood: busy
current music: I'm in love with a stripper
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| Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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2:48 am
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Oh dear, this is horrid. I have an acute case of Spring fever. This means that I am completely unproductive and all I want to do is drink, watch Dawson's creek, drink, play outside,cuddle, do the crybaby, smoke hookah, drive and not drink, and lounge around in my sweatpants with my mod while drinking beer. Its completely the worst time for this to happen because April is the month where everything happens. I am overloaded with work hours, CA programming and being on call, lots of papers, the internship, and studying. Not to mention applying to jahbs and getting my summer together and exercising. But no appetite for work. ayi yai yai.
I also want to sleep alot. But only during the day. Also not convient.
current mood:  cold
current music: Your chevy don't drive like mine...bedododo
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| Friday, March 31st, 2006
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6:02 pm
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Good point, bad point.
Week from hell-Havn't been feeling well, stressed to the max
Week from heaven- Its been beautiful out.
Job bad-Didn't get the internship I wanted. They got about 200 applicants and interviewed 30 and I was one so I sort of thought I had a shot. But it was with the children's hospital and Harvard, so it was pretty competitive but still I'm sort of let down.
Job good-The people I babysit for havn't contacted me in awhile so I thought I was fired. But they just emailed me with a ton of hours. make money make money.
Party hard: It has been decided no matter what I will party hard and get drunk tonight. In fact I am already drinking a beer I accidently bought an hour ago called "Batch 420: Stoned Coast brew." I feel rather silly.
Party solo: I may be alone in this venture. thats ok.
current mood:  giddy
current music: Get Drunk and Be Somebody-Toby Keith
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| Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
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9:09 pm
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So Katie informs me I need to update this more and so be it, although I do not usually have anything interesting to say and by the time I get around to doing it, I am too uninspired to write anything interesting I might have. In any event, I am exhausted from my busy day and being a grumpasorious even though today was pretty awesome. It was beautiful out and I wore a skirt and had ice coffee which is enough to put me in a good mood. My classes were all dandy, except for the three hour one which seemed never ending and I was just irritated through it for no good reason. CA meetings fit surprisingly well into the end of the day-they provide a good forum for me to relax and vent. I am starting to think of my car as an extension of myself so in this respect its sort of a transitional object. My dad just told me I had a negative outlook and will have self fulfilling prophcies because I was freaking out about this summer/next year div III/jobs. I don't think thats true I am just realistic and like to be prepared for the worst case scenerio so I am not disappointed and am able to handle it. It's not that I don't think I can do things, its just I want to be prepared if they don't work out. sighhh, I am getting myself worked up over nothing. I should shower, read and goto bed early. But whenever the plan is goto bed early-it doesn't work. No matter what, I end up tossing and turning. This weekend should be nice. I am on call for most of my life but I do get Friday off. I'm thinking class, groc, hike, atkins, and then maybe margaritas? I don't know. It needs to be good as I will then continue to be on call for the rest of my life.
P.S. I am not nearly as neurotic as this makes me sound. Just grumpy/exhausted/happy.
P.P.S. I picked up the New Guy from Davids tonight, and I buckled him into shotgun. The New Guy was pretty as can be, sitting in the front seat, looking at me, telling me he loved me. I do love that little frog.
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